Does Blogging Help Accountability?

Gloria, my nutritionist, has given me some interesting things to do and think about. I blog here in cyberspace, but no one actually reads what I write, so why do I do it? Does putting things in black and white (or purple and white, in this case) help in some subconscious way? Maybe seeing it will make it more real?

I thought I might do different things on different days, depending on my mood. First, I might just chronicle my food intake for the day. How exciting! Or, I might discuss my exercise for the day. Or I might just complain. Or maybe writing a blog draws attention to the one things I'm trying to NOT think about: diet, exercise, food, and weight. They say NOT to think about food and dieting, but how can you lose weight without doing that?

Here's what I wish:

1. That I would be able to remove dieting and food from the forefront of my daily thoughts

2. That I could really actually eat only when hungry

3. That I would view food as a fuel, not as anything else

4. That I would not eat because it tastes good and because I like it

5. That I could stop before being full

I also wish that:

1. Water tasted good

2. Chocolate had fiber, less calories, and was it's own food group, preferably the base of the USDA food pyramid

3. It was easier to make a "balanced" meal or snack on the fly, with good carbs, protein, and a healthy fat

Oh well. Don't see any of this happening.

Yesterday, I started back on my strength training, after a 4 day hiatus for my birthday.

I did drop sets (3) of:

-curls

-tricep kickbacks

-chest presses

-rows

Then I did 10 Australian rows on the Perfect Pullup bar.

Then I worked the lower body:

-50 squats

-penguin walk w/band (200 steps each way)

-hip rotators w/band (70 each leg)

-hip hikes on step (50 each leg)

-wall sits (100 seconds)

I will be sore later today, but so far this morning, not too bad. It's always delayed.

I wanted to get up early this morning to walk the treadmill. It seems that, if I wait till the evening, it never happens. Day after day goes by and the cardio goes undone. So...I didn't get up early, but I did go ahead and walk. I really hate starting the day out with wet underwear.

30 minutes. 4000 steps done before lunch. I think that feels good to have it over with.

Going to try drinking 16 ounces of water before every meal. Will see if this helps. But, once again, here I am, having to focus on how to make myself more full and less hungry. Always counting, measuring, planning, analyzing, etc. Just want to live each day, eating when I am hungry, not eating when I'm not, making good choices instead of so-so ones, loving exercise, and finally not having my thighs rub together when I walk.